uncuttable emotion

why can't i stop the crying
after you said goodbye
it must be one of the emotions
that i no longer feel
while i still feel you in my arms
i still feel these tears.


i'm smiling now
though can't understand these
forgotten sins
while sitting here
knives near, yet unreachable
through my soul.


laughing i realize
little has changed
i still love, only a different way
and as i look hopeful for a second more
seeing pain within, though not tempted to cut
this cuttable emotion called love.